cause and effect

today is the day my life has begun.

just got back a lil bit ago from george mason university.....stayin with a friend over there.and i gotta say, this whole obama thing, hes got alot of fans. haha
congrats to the new president, and i honestly hope the best for him.
please hope the best back to me, cuz i really need it at this point. i need to find my trail on the road again, this gps is just not workin when my hearts tryin to find its way around.and im back where i was before.LOST.

District of Columbia?

so right now as of this moment, im in Fairfax,Virginia waitin with alysha and jesse T at his apartment.......for the inaguration thingy for obama tomorrow in washington d.c. wow. seriously, this is history about to be taken place. i mean, it takes place every day, but this is something i might witness that is huge! im really nervous something bad will happen, but hey, mabe for once this will be a really good thing. i dunno. just worried about the rumors, and the world.i guess we'll be seeing in about 11 hours. i also went to the church of latter day saints temple, and i have to say, it is one of the most interesting buildings i have seen in my whole life. its pretty amazing. its so peaceful there! aaahhh! someday, i hope to get married there!

and of course, the whole weekend up to now, i have been dealing with a mistake i have made way too many times, and maybe i should just stop and think.maybe i should sacrifice my pain for the one i love. maybe in order for this person to truely be happy from now on, i should be a man, and let her live to be happy.let her feel and live her life without my presence in order for her to live in the first place.I am the mistake that i let myself become.
but I want her to be happy now that i know i won't be able to fix this ever again.